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The most important consideration–for this year

Holy People,

By now we have read,reflected,spoke and pondered over
many old and new ideas on: how to celebrate Yom Kippur.
I just want to emphasis what seems to me again, to be number one
consideration for this year:
Imagine all that you did or said last year which you consider today ‘bad’
or ‘sinful’ or negative or unfortunate,
is nothing but an internal reminder to connect to
the part that has been avoided for so long- your Higher Self.
Imagine all these past year’s incidents which happened seemingly ‘accidentally’ were there to mirror and
show what is missing and longing for you – the connection to that part which
knows the Truth and is your Real Guide.
As we enter a new year, a new contract with this Self is written- this is the Book of Life and you are the one to write your name there.

Your life today is the only book or movie important. It concerns itself with only one question: what is my concept / insight / vision waiting to be seen and manifest by me. By me because you are the only one who can do it.
All the rest, peace in the world,help to others, etc is not the point now.
This year is about going back to the beginning, the core, the DNA, the Letters, it’s about you and me and the new contract with ourselves.

We are going to forgive ourselves for not discovering our Higher Self until now.We are taking a new vow to stay tune to it always and in every place; when we lay down or stand up or walk on the way….

Easy fast,

Gilla

join my 4 presentations in the Jewish&Wellness Festival

Dear Lovers of the Hebrew Letters!
Why you ‘always have felt attracted to the Hebrew Letters’? because they have a new message to convey to you and because you are ready to receive it. Receiving is not only the meaning of Kaballah but Accepting, I would say, is even more correct. Accepting Yourself ! קבלת עצמי Accepting myself – the Mysterious Self !!Heneni הנני is the state we are in; Ready (as Rabbi Guzick mentioned last morning) and Available! The time is right! and the message is Universal. Another face of the 70 faces of Torah is here.Last morning at Sinai Temple was magical and I am looking forward to present again this evening at 7:30 pm ( and we will meet at the Golden Hall (not Ziegler)). Yes, each work togetheris fresh so you are welcome to join again. And last presentation in this “Jewish Wisdom and Wellness Festival” is tomorrow, Friday at Leo Baeck Temple at 11:00 am – 12:30 pm at their lovely library. It was a pleasure to work and present these new insights on the Hebrew Letters to new comers. The sincerity and good questions were a sign of readiness. I was honored to be there.
Gilla.

you are invited

My Dear Special Workers of Light,

I would like to invite each of you to an important event
in the life of my work with the Hebrew Letters. It’s important
because many people who came from traditional backgrounds see Kabbalah/spirituality or meditation as something foreign which disturbs the Judaism they know. As you know Kaballah and spirituality only deepens our search for Truth/God and help us bring our potentiality into fulfillment. Kabalists and sages say that by engaging in it , we bring Peace to the World!
How mysterious! and what a life changing journey!
Specially, as you know, The Hebrew Letters.
So by joining these free events, with anyone you think can benefit, you support this amazing movement of awakening and renewal in your families, communities and in the world.
Please join me at:
At Sinai Temple: (on Wishire Bl and Beverly Glenn)
next Thursday evening at 7:30 pm- to 9 pm
at Zigler Hall
and/or a morning session on Wednesday April 29: 9:30- 11 am
at Gold Hall.
(refreshments will be served).
At Leo Baeck Temple:
On Tuesday evening, April 28 : 7pm-8:30 pm at the Library
and/or a morning session on Friday, may 1 : 11 am – 12:30 pm

Please forward this call to participate in any way possible (newsletters, friends etc.) to any of my 4 presentations in these two different locations.
These 4 presentations are part of
“Jewish Wisdom & Wellness -A festival of Learning” (jewishwisdomandwellness.org).
which makes it possible. Great efforts of many people and students of the Letters are put into this blessed announcement. Join us.
Thank you.
gilla/ גילה

Ma Nishtanah? What has changed? Passover 2015

Ma Nishtana? What has changed? Passover Seder 2015
Sometimes it takes an evening for a deeper question to come up. In our family’s Passover Seder Dinner, my son in law, came up with one. Why does the story always need to start from the suffering of Children of Israel. Is it an imperative beginning for a story which concern inner development?…is it a necessary drive…that things start from a distressed place, from a lack, from feeling less, having less, not being content… cruelty, pain etc. ? can’t we have by now a different story? a more positive and developed story?
I woke up this morning thinking just about that.
The actual Biblical story starts from Abraham not Moses- it starts with a cosmic promise of Redemption that God promised him and all of his off springs (including the 5 sons he had with Keturah which were “sent off to the east with ‘gifts'”). It’s a cosmic promise that all suffering/slavery will eventually end up with freedom. It is in the DNA of our essence. So, it is Abraham’s experiences which start this universal story and set the grounds up. God says to him: “Go to the place that I will show you…” Yes, this God also told him just before that, to leave some familiar things behind; parents, homeland etc. but in general, it is a great positive direction…to align with a consciousness which is different from what was known to him in his village up to now. Perhaps this separation is a necessary ingredient. (The definition of holy is that which is separate from the mundane). Abraham goes through 10 tests which measure and develop his faith in this Unnamable Power which appeared as a call in his life. This God or Source/Keter is that which everything came from, belongs to and will return to. If we seek Truth, we eventually start to see that we are creatures that are position in a very perplexing spot in Creation, right in between this Divine level and the physical surviving level, in between influences/ powers pulling us in different directions. We love something or enjoy something and then it’s taken away, all is changing and i am not fast enough, I am stumbling behind, it’s a constant paradoxical drama, and I am being asked to think dialectically and to love and to bare and I do not have what it takes to Be in it.
Returning to Abraham, his tenth test was letting go of his son, Isaac, that which he loves the most. It is being translated mistakenly as The Sacrifice of Isaac instead of the Binding of Isaac.(Binding to God…?) That interestingly, corresponds to the Ten Plagues of the Passover story which is also translated mistakenly- the Hebrew is the Ten Strikes. By passing that test with Isaac, Kabbalah says, Abraham insures a permanent Divine presence here in our world! Something high is now available, something which was not available before….interesting.
So, is this an example of the suffering of the One for the benefit of the rest of us. Like in the Yeshuah/Jesus story, whom many believe went through the same journey. The different perhaps is that in one story it is a test coming from God with a different, more positive ending while in the other story, Yehushuah is being killed by others ‘for the sake of his God’ (למען קידוש השם)or again to be closer to the Hebrew: ‘for the sanctification of the Name’. His death/suffering meant more than anything else to wake people up and obviously his message is one with Abraham his ancestor. Like the message of many other ‘Men of God’ and Avatars.
Each and every authentic doctrine will require full participation of its followers in the process of redemption meaning; the miraculous will take place when I am much cleaner of negativity, free inside and available to receive something new. Is anything that will contribute to this movement ok? The good and the bad? Look at life and see…
Sometimes what it takes is a feeling of a lack. Sometimes strikes. Lack is not negative when it serve the Higher, when it leads to awakening.
And so, doesn’t anything, good or bad, always eventually at the service of redemption? I do not know… what if it leads to violence and cruelty…how does it than, still serve the Higher..? this is what we see in the holy text as for instant the Ten Plagues. Don’t we need to get rid of the negative story in order to stop its perpetual suffering? Are we today on a higher conscious level and the biblical story pulls are back down to what we already worked on so hard to get rid of?
Is that what we are really asking Daniel? Is this the paradigm shifts we see happening in the world today?

And the miraculous is when I read the well know Psalm which says when
” Adonai (YHWH) is my Shepherd, I shall not miss/lack anything…”
so do we need to go again and again, over and over the same story of suffering to get to the land of milk and honey? perhaps not necessarily,
it depend on the mission of our soul, on where we are in that long story, what spiritual type we are, our internal and external age. But we have a unified story that is true, a text we call holy which promises to supply us with instructions which will deliver us from a narrow place/house of bondage to a wider open freer place. The reason why I even write about that, after a rich spiritual education which included spiritual thinkers like Gurdjieff, Kaballah Masters, Krishnah Murthi and others which all concentrate on the universal principles of life instead of following blindly a flag, is because of what is happening in the world today. It seems that what we need today in this world of us is not a new religion which I once use to think we do, but a better understanding of the old. Most people’s identity is still there in the old traditions ready if not to kill or die for them at least to not be speaking to ’the others’ on the other side, the different ones. Most people in their semi-numb state, believe that the truth belongs to their camp. I have seen reform and conservative Rabies who when referring to Orthodox Rabies speak of ‘them’ and ‘us’ and I thank God that I was not raised on the laps of this attitude. So perhaps gratefulness is a good state to wish for.

Dear Children of Abraham,

We need to transit from Purim to Passover !
What a difference…in Ester scroll, the last book canonized
into the Bible, solutions to the problems come from the people,
the name of God is not being mentioned, not even one time!
The Divine is hidden.
In Passover God is playing solo. The Divine is in the middle of this
psycho drama motivating it all, why? the answer is straight in the text:
so that the whole world will know that ‘Anochi Adonai….’
It is called, Mizraim; those who think, like Pharaoh, that they are god
and the herd that accept and worshiping them.
The Exodus from the house of bondage into Freedom is at the
core of all Jewish traditions! It has a universal message-
a promises imbeded in our DNA, that each and every human being
will eventually move into Freedom.
It’s about speaking, uttering your words about your journey out of slavery so that you can hear yourself, others around can affirm and the univers can witness. Therefore the name HAGADA. Remember that our mission as a collective is to witness the Divine on earth by the power of speech!!
And then we have the 15 well known Steps of Elevation of the Soul which we call Seder/Order.

With King David at Temple Emanuel-

What was I looking for?

Last Sat. evening Temple Emanuel presented a panel of three distinguish writers.

Each wrote a book about a perplexing figure:

King David.

I was looking for something that can move me and illuminate the complexity of the situation.

I wish we could go a bit deeper when we reached and shared the most interesting observation; David with all the necessary and unnecessary blood he shaded, UN-qualifying himself to be the builder of a Temple that God is able to dwell in, still is loved and chosen to be a leader. Rabbi Wolpe even admits that while writing about David the King, the murderer, the poet, the musician, the dancer, the one who does not know how to love women, the one who does not trust God to be given what was meant to be for him, impatient, a careless father, etc still Rabbi David Wolpe himself ends up falling in love with biblical David. I was interested in this aspect – the aspect of the Rabbi’s emotional experience which rises against all odds. An experience which can help both Davids become more whole human beings, redeeming their life stories; maybe seeing women differently, relating to the feminine aspects in themselves, trusting and following the Divine/ Higher Selves in new ways. Perhaps standing before the unknown with new questions and pondering. Standing before God in a more developed way, a more holistic way.

Why should biblical David carry the seeds for the Messiah to be.

What can be more elevating for me as a seeker of truth, is to see how David cares for the land while King Salomon cares for building of the Temple. This is all a tapestry of pieces that come together to show how this people come together as a nation and also get dispersed in order to spread what they carry. Either as a member of the 10 ‘lost’ tribes, or as an expelled Jew or as one of the children of Salomon’s 1000 wives.

All these possibilities are reassuring one important part of the Divine plan, that seeds of this new consciousness brought by Moses will be grounded here on earth and help prepare for a collective expansion of this consciousness. David the King and the poet, with both his coldness, self center – ness and devotion to God, is here to establish part of this vision.

We had to acknowledge that when God says in Torah, why do you need a King? Am I not a good enough of a king for you? Why to imitate and follow other nations, God actually shows that any human being will fail taking ‘His’ place – no one is suitable for the job- no one has 13 measures of compassion. The eyes need to be lifted up for help.”I will lift up my eyes, where my help will come from?” (Psalms).

אשא עיני אל ההרים מאין יבוא עזרי

It is not easy but this is the message. Otherwise indeed, things do not make any sense. We are perplexed and I hear people wanting to change this weird God who chooses strange people to build a house that the Messiah no less, will come from.

Perhaps my dissatisfaction with the visions of the speakers led me to find something; a direction that opens up the way to be more deeply touched and to increase the understanding of my place in this picture in our times. If so, it was a blessing.

With King David at Temple Emanuel- What was I looking for?

With King David at Temple Emanuel-

What was I looking for?

Last Sat. evening Temple Emanuel presented a panel of three distinguish writers. Each wrote a book about a perplexing figure:

King David.

I was looking for something that can touch me and illuminate something I did not see before.

I wish we could go a bit deeper when we reached and shared the most interesting observation;  David with all the necessary and unnecessary blood he shaded,  un-qualifying himself to be the builder of a Temple that God is able to dwell in, and still he is  loved and chosen to be a leader.  Rabbi Wolpe even admits that while writing about David the King, the murderer, the poet, the musician, the dancer, the one who does not know how to love women, the one who does not trust God to be given what was meant to be for him, impatient, a careless father, etc still Rabbi David Wolpe  ends up falling in love with biblical David. I was interested in this aspect – the aspect of the Rabbi’s emotional experience which rises against all odds. An experience which can help both Davids  become more whole human beings, redeeming their life stories; maybe seeing women differently, relating to the feminine aspects in themselves, trusting and following the Divine/ Higher Selves in new ways. Perhaps standing before the unknown with new questions and ponderings. Standing before God in a more developed way, a more wholistic way.

Why should biblical David carry the seeds for the Messiah to be.

What can be more elevating for me as a seeker of truth, is to see how David cares for the land while King Salomon cares for building of the Temple. This is all a tapestry of pieces that come together to show how this people come together as a nation and also get dispersed in order to spread what they carry. Either as a member of the 10 ‘lost’ tribes, or as an expelled Jew or as one of the children of Salomon’s 1000 wives.

All these possibilities are reassuring one important part of the Divine plan, that seeds of this new consciousness brought by Moses will be grounded here on earth and help prepare for a collective expansion of this consciousness. David the King and the poet, with both his coldness, self center – ness and devotion to God, is here to establish part of this vision.

We had to see that when God says in Torah, why do you need a King? Am I not a good enough of a king for you? Why to imitate and follow other nations, God actually shows that any human being will fail taking ‘His’ place – no one is suitable for the job- no one has 13 measures of compassion. The eyes need to be lifted up for help.

אשא עיני אל ההרים מאין יבוא עזרי

It is not easy but this is the message. Otherwise indeed, things do not make any sense. We are perplexed and I hear people wanting to change this weird God who chooses strange people to build a house that the Messiah no less, will come from.

Perhaps my dissatisfaction with the visions of the speakers led me to find something; a direction that opens up the way to be more deeply touched and to increase the understanding of my place in this picture in our times. If so it was a blessing.

Prep. for the High Holy-Days

I am sitting here in front of my new TV.

CNN is not on, just a black smooth shinny screen.

All black, the color of the unknown.

The color of that which has not manifested

Yet. I made myself Turkish coffee with cardamom

And ice and honey and milk. Nobody drinks Turkish

Coffee like that. In the middle east they will laugh at me.

But here in LA, it’s ok. It’s ok. It’s not the end of the world.

I look at the black screen and I say with radical amazement:

Barouch Ata Adonai- what a life you gave me. What amazing life

You gave me. So unusual. I have never seen life as such.

You are the Almighty.

It is an honor for me to be dancing with you

the new Dance of life.

And  also for this music, I am grateful.

9-9-14

הכנה לחגים הגבוהים

אני יושבת כאן  בסלון לפני הטלויזיה החדשה,

בלי סי אן אן, רק מסך שחור. חדש ומבריק.

שחור לגמרי. צבע הבלתי ידוע. צבע הדבר שקים עדין

רק בפועל. בתוך עצמו ניסתר מעיני כל. עשיתי קפה תורכי

עם קרדומן ועם קוביות קרח ועם דבש ועם חלב. במזרח

היו צוחקים עלי אבל כאן בלוס אנגלס, זה בסדר.

זה לא סוף העולם. יש לזה מקום.

אני מביטה על המסך השחור ואומרת בתדהמה רדיקלית,

ברוך אתה אדוני. איזה חיים נתת לי. לא רגילים.

חיים כאלה לא ראיתי מעודי. אתה כל יכול.

זה לכבוד לי,אלוהי ואלוהי אבותי,

לרקוד איתך את ריקוד החיים הללו.הידועים

והלא ידועים.

וגם על צלילי המוסיקה, אני אסירת תודה.

THE NEW SINS –  AN AWAKENING

An extract from preparation for  High Holy-Days

“The Fountain of Now”

על חטאים שבין אדם לבין המקום

On the sins between Man & God

  • FORGETTING TO CELEBRATE LIFE

New Approach: Focusing on Joy, Gratitude, Hope, daily Miracles

Question to Ask Yourself: Am I remembering to look at life with joy on a daily basis?

  • GIVING TOO MUCH ATTENTION – THE MOST SACRED SUBSTANCE IN US – TO THE LOWER            Allowing the cheaper, the convenient, the ordinary, the habitual, the unconscious to steal us               from ourselves.

New Approach: Devoting time to what nourishes us.

Question to Ask Yourself: Am I spending enough time on what nourishes my spirit?

  • UNWILLINGNESS TO FORGIVE OURSELVES- how can God forgive us if we do not.

New Approach: Loving and accepting ourselves ; Kabalat Atzmi as a start.

Question to Ask Yourself: Can I look at my mistakes as merely “missing the mark”, and

accept that this is part of the way we learn, grow and move on?

  • FEAR OF REALIZING AND FULFILLING OUR GIFTS AND FULL POTENTIAL

New Approach: Awareness of our gifts and potential and realizing they are to help us

fulfill the mission of our souls

Question to Ask Yourself: How am I holding myself back, and hiding my light?

  • COMPARING OURSELVES TO OTHERS

New Approach: Realizing we are unique, with our own unique mission. Question to Ask Yourself: Can I compare myself to where I want to be in fulfilling my                                       own mission and goals?

  • FOCUSING ON GETTING RECOGNITION AND ENERGY FROM OTHERS

New Approach: Going to our souls, where we can receive it freely and directly, rather                                     than relying on those who “know better.”

Question to Ask Yourself: Am I spending quiet time listening to my soul as to what I                                       should do and be?

  • UNWILLINGNESS TO EXPERIENCE THE DIVINE

New Approach: Talking to God, listening to the Silence, being longer with “not knowing”

Question to Ask Yourself: Am I sitting 10 minutes a day? Beginning and ending the day                                                talking to God?

  • WORSHIPPING FALSE IMAGES

Such as fame, success, wealth, power

New Approach: Focusing on what serves the mission of our souls

Question to Ask Yourself: What am I doing to fulfill the mission of my soul?

  • WANTING TO BE PERFECT, the A+ Person

New Approach: Realizing we are just as we’re supposed to be, in God’s perfect image

Question to Ask Ourselves: Can I let imperfection be a part of me?

  • NEEDING TO CONTROL EVERYTHING

Fixating on certain outcomes, discounting the process.

New Approach: The best outcome is our Soul’s idea, not our ego’s. Question to Ask Ourselves: Can I release control and let things unfold, leaving                                                    something for God?

  • RELUCTANCE TO ASK FOR HELP

New Approach: Realizing we are not alone; we’re all connected; we can turn to God and others.

Question to Ask Ourselves: When I’m stuck, do I suffer alone?  Am I too proud to ask for help?

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